My feelings are mixed now. On one hand, I am so grateful because this year I got a chance to experience different and also do many things. But on the other hand, I can't deny that I'm sad because I only have three months left here. End of March 2021, I am going to return to my homeland. I still don't know where my husband will be assigned up.

To be sure, for the umpteenth time, I have to adapt again and again in a new place later. Honestly, when I moved here, my adaptation process was so quick and easy. I don't know what it's like when returning to my homeland. Just live with it. Let's see later. hehehehe.

Sometimes, I wonder why I didn't dare to dream high when I was young, even just dreaming of being able to go abroad to continue my study. I was scared because I felt It was too far for me to catch. In the past, there were so many negative voices too that said to me. I stupidly believed. Yeah, I was so naive. However, I am so thankful that I finally got the opportunity to live abroad and interact directly with people from various countries. Here too, I met many fellow Indonesians who have lived here for a long time. They have been here for their own purpose. Some are for working, studying, doing internships, etc.

So, what am I doing with only three months left? Still a lot. LOL.

Sure, I want to do the best I can. I hope one day I will come back again though I don't know from which way.

And based on the experiences in my youth, I want to be a wise adult and not destroy the dreams of young people. Later, I will also tell Taka to not easily believe what others say about us, especially those who say negative words.

Enjoy the remaining three months. Hopefully someday what I got here can be useful to everyone.